Friday, April 5, 2013


Junior Prom is on 4/20 this year.  How appropriate.  I really wonder how the Parent's Club or principal or whoever comes up with these dates.

I do plan to go to prom this year.  This is a one in a lifetime experience!  All the movies and TV shows paint it so beautifully, so how could I miss out?  For my whole life, I've always told myself that dates aren't necessary. I can go alone, who cares?  I DON'T NEED NO MAN TO MAKE ME HAPPY.

But then as days and days progressed, when guys kept asking girls out to prom in the cutest ways* ever, I began to panic.  I started to see myself in a new light.  I kept asking myself, "What's wrong with me?  Why doesn't anyone want to ask me?"  Panicked, I scoured myself, looking for possible reasons.  Oh it's definitely my teeth.  They're so crooked and scary.  No wait my complexion is really bad, I'm always red.  Hold on it has to be my greasy, unkempt hair.  I'M JUST TOO UGLY FOR ANYONE TO ASK ME!!!!

I get so hard on myself, beating me up for my physical attributes.  I wonder if any guy, beyond prom, beyond high school, would actually be attracted to me.  I feel so left out, as I watch my friends get asked to prom one by one.  Heck, my one friend got asked to prom by two different guys (but ended up asking another one to prom herself!)  I'm still trapped in this notion that I HAVE to go with a date, that I NEED to pin a fancy boutonniere on a boy's suit.  I NEED to take glamorous photos with my date, and then post them on Facebook.

Now I feel a little bit better.  I've kind of accepted the fact that you don't need a date to have fun in prom.  Still though, that stupid, self-conscious voice is still in my head, wondering if any boys sort of notice me.  (Hey and there's plenty of time left *cough* a week * cough* to get asked.)

I did consider the option of asking a guy to prom myself.  However, all of the guys I would've wanted to ask, including my guy friends, already asked girls to go.

Which brings me to my next point.  Sometimes these girls have a different boy in mind.  But since the boys stick their necks out and ask sweetly and adorably, the girls would look like monsters if they'd said no.  Thus, the girl would have to sacrifice her own prom dream.  If she said no, the poor boy would almost look like a fool and become self-conscious himself.  So to me, a lot of people are unsatisfied because they didn't end up with the person they originally had in mind.  But that's coming from me, a bitter and dateless seventeen-year old girl.

Let's get away from this depressing stuff and move on to something more important.  DRESSES!!!

The girls at my school made a Facebook group so there wouldn't be any dress coincidences.  I still haven't picked out a dress yet.  I'm kind of screwed.  However, I did make my own Google Doc for potential dresses.  My two rules are: not strapless and must be under $80.

If anything I'd go with this one from Topshop, but holy shit this is so expensive!  ;_;

I kind of like this tie-dye alien-ish UNIF one, but the price still keeps me from getting it.

Realistically, I'm probably going to order this one

 Let me know what you think!  As you can see, I like the look of sleeveless dresses with high collars.  I'm still keeping an eye out for the one. And send me some dresses you think I'd like!

*aka composing an original song and getting band kids to play it while serenading the girl; getting cupcakes that say Prom?; scavenger hunts... etc

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